Friday, March 12, 2010

Moving On

I'm not sure it's ever really going to feel like the time to emerge. So, I'm starting to think if it is ever going to happen, I'm going to need to force it a little. A lot of things are getting 'back to normal' on the surface, but underneath, nothing is the same. And I think it's finally occurring to me, that it never will be.

I had this thought recently that I'd eventually like to resurface in the blogosphere with a beautiful tribute post, in memory of my mother. And that after that, I'd be able to move on - go back to 'Enjoying the Journey' ~ here on the blog, but more importantly, in real life. But, the thought of going back to inane posts about sleepovers and marshmallows - the thought of actually letting myself enjoy the journey again - without her to share it with, still feels wrong. At the same time, this sort of hibernation I've been in is starting to feel wrong too. So, here goes.


Dolores Connell Schafer






Young Beauty








Adoring Mother







Delighted Grandmother






Forever Friend



Some of the things that will always bring my mom to mind...



family
cooking
little league baseball
chardonnay
NYC
soup
St. Augustine
Linda
diabetes
hospitals
Barack Obama
Meryl Streep
Paul Newman
primary peritoneal cancer
wigs
Philadelphia
Wilt Chamberlain
June 29
July 13

Peanuts
Winnie the Pooh
op
scrabble
crossword puzzles
German chocolate pie
holidays
compassion
Joan Baez
Elizabeth Berg
Lifetime movies
Terms of Endearment
Crimes of the Heart
swimming pools
the beach
charity
sewing
window treatments
quilting






Her spirit is alive and well in each one of these incredible people.



I love you Mom, and I miss you more than words can say.