Moving On

I'm not sure it's ever really going to feel like the time to emerge. So, I'm starting to think if it is ever going to happen, I'm going to need to force it a little. A lot of things are getting 'back to normal' on the surface, but underneath, nothing is the same. And I think it's finally occurring to me, that it never will be.

I had this thought recently that I'd eventually like to resurface in the blogosphere with a beautiful tribute post, in memory of my mother. And that after that, I'd be able to move on - go back to 'Enjoying the Journey' ~ here on the blog, but more importantly, in real life. But, the thought of going back to inane posts about sleepovers and marshmallows - the thought of actually letting myself enjoy the journey again - without her to share it with, still feels wrong. At the same time, this sort of hibernation I've been in is starting to feel wrong too. So, here goes.

Dolores Connell Schafer

Young Beauty

Adoring Mother

Delighted Grandmother

Forever Friend

Some of the things that will always bring my mom to mind...

family cooking little league baseball chardonnay NYC soup St. Augustine Linda diabetes hospitals Barack Obama Meryl Streep Paul Newman primary peritoneal cancer wigs Philadelphia Wilt Chamberlain June 29 July 13

Peanuts Winnie the Pooh op scrabble crossword puzzles German chocolate pie holidays compassion Joan Baez Elizabeth Berg Lifetime movies Terms of Endearment Crimes of the Heart swimming pools the beach charity sewing window treatments quilting

Her spirit is alive and well in each one of these incredible people.

I love you Mom, and I miss you more than words can say.